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Why do people offer head and bust commissions alongside full body ones?  It just sounds like a stupid, half assed way of saying "I want to do less work and get paid for it" or worse still "I want to be affordable to people but I don't want to work too hard".  It's just absolutely mindnumbingly dumb to me.  You DO know that you can simply just tone down the quality of the work you do for them so that you don't have to work too hard, but still offer a completed piece for them that's within reason and is still of a quality denoting the asking price?  I mean, you could simply quick sketch out a pose, and do only minimum fixes for something below your standard price scale. 

I do notice there are people who do this as a sort of custom since they've seen others do it, but this isn't directed at you if that is the case - though I would highly recommend you take these words to heart, as it seems rather pointless.

EDIT:  DISCLAIMER - This journal was prompted after a specific somebody who's game released recently made commissions available. 
  • Listening to: THE RAGE IN MY HEAD
  • Reading: THE BOOK OF RAGE
  • Watching: RAGE ON TV
  • Playing: STREETS OF RAGE
  • Eating: RAW RAGE
  • Drinking: UNFILTERED RAGE
Does almost nothing for me.  People fave and fave and fave, and at some point, it's basically the same people who are faving, so you as an artist can't even check their profiles for content that is new to you.  It's like the laziest way to say you appreciate something, but hey, I can kinda understand.  A lot of more professional artists don't engage with their fanbase, and you wind up with people not bothering to try to say anything as a way of not having to worry about their words being wasted on an empty response.

But not me.  I'll always be responsive to feedback or reception of any kind.  Even if I ever do make it big, I will at least reply to the first several pages of responses I get, and let everyone know that as well, so they don't feel left out.

I'm not going to poke, prod, or pull you're arm to get you to comment, you're free to do whatever you want, but also don't be surprised if the reaction you get from faving without anything more doesn't amount to squat.  I need to know exactly what you like so that I can do more of it if I'm down with that.  Just saying you like it doesn't tell me much.

And yeah, I'm well aware that I said I'd be focusing on me more than others.  If you're thinking much about that, then think about this:  Are you interested in seeing more of what you like or are you worried about me contradicting myself?  Choose one and one only.
  • Listening to: THE RAGE IN MY HEAD
  • Reading: THE BOOK OF RAGE
  • Watching: RAGE ON TV
  • Playing: STREETS OF RAGE
  • Eating: RAW RAGE
  • Drinking: UNFILTERED RAGE
After seeing how I've been performing lately, knocking stuff out like I should and all, I think it's safe to say for certain this time, that I will be actively participating on Deviant Art with a sense of consistency - that is, not just looking for artwork or tutorials to save every day or people to chat or troll, but actually seeking out people to interact with more often and being present enough to engage with people within a timely manner.  That's good news for people looking for requests and commissions from me, and for those who were interested in just hanging out, where as I've always been somewhat of a let down.

This good news doesn't come without a price though.  Of course everything does.  Family tragedy happened last Friday when Grams passed away.  She had recently celebrated a birthday and had gotten way up in age too.  Fucking shame.  Felt quite empty, as this puts a huge gap between me and the rest of that side of the family, as she brought us all together as a focus point.  But it did bring about a determination in me that I feel like I can't sit around wasting time in trying to figure things in general out anymore.  I'm just doing it from now on. 

I'm pissed more so than before.....


....Just like Shen-fn-woo should have always been before anxiety and depression took over....


..... Now let's rumble.
  • Listening to: THE RAGE IN MY HEAD
  • Reading: THE BOOK OF RAGE
  • Watching: RAGE ON TV
  • Playing: STREETS OF RAGE
  • Eating: RAW RAGE
  • Drinking: UNFILTERED RAGE
Normally don't do these, mostly because I don't really find very many artists who I can call myself cool with, nor can I say that my reputation with the DA community would help them out in the slightest, but hey, at least I'm trying this time.

Fellow artists :iconnaan-ana:'s feeling down about the lack of interest in his arts.  Spreading the good word and putting his face out there from my end of the spectrum.  Hopefully you'll check him out and spread the word.



Anyway, update in my current situation:

Kinda just recovered from a massive anxiety spell that lasted way too long.  A change in meds actually killed that shit outright, but it gradually comes back in bits in pieces.  Kinda stops progress dead in it's tracks.  But I'm glad something's working now.  That extra confidence is a magical fn' thing I tell ya.  Makes you want to do all the things.  So back to it I go.  I owe one guy a review of his book, so I'll be getting to that, along with the requests and commissions.  I'm just glad I didn't fall horrendously behind like I've done for the past years. 
  • Listening to: THE RAGE IN MY HEAD
  • Reading: THE BOOK OF RAGE
  • Watching: RAGE ON TV
  • Playing: STREETS OF RAGE
  • Eating: RAW RAGE
  • Drinking: UNFILTERED RAGE
:D
  • Listening to: THE RAGE IN MY HEAD
  • Reading: THE BOOK OF RAGE
  • Watching: RAGE ON TV
  • Playing: STREETS OF RAGE
  • Eating: RAW RAGE
  • Drinking: UNFILTERED RAGE
I know for the past 2 years I haven't been one to update very frequently, and if I did, it was mostly to post trolls I've been doing to other people who I felt deserved it.  But if you noticed, I haven't even been doing THAT.  Well, that's becasue I'm sinking further and further into the depressionz.  I'm basically living check to check again, as the place I stay at has had it's rent increased, but not it's service, funny thing, that. 

Mold scare this (unresolved),

IRS scare that (unresolved),

Job threatening to fire me (though at this point,  couldn't care less, and am kinda hoping they do, because I could use the extra free time to sit around doing something I do enjoy and finish everyone's commissions, and art requests while I sit on my ass and collect unemployment from these pieces of shit). 

Been growing gray hairs and actually losing hair off the top (possibly because I tried something I saw on the internet, and not necessarily due to stress - thank God it's only a little bit, and I stopped doing that). 


What the hell is this all coming to?  I mean, I've felt it before but never this bad....  This idea of "The End" slowly creeping up on me.  Keep feeling like the book on Shen FN Woo is trying to close prematurely for some reason, and I'm not the one doing it - like some kind of cosmic algorithm has been set up and somehow I'm aware of it.  Anyone ever get this feeling before?

I really don't know what to make of it.  I still have things I'm supposed to be doing for people, and I don't plan on disapointing, but geez, it'd be nice for this looming feeling to just piss off.
  • Listening to: THE RAGE IN MY HEAD
  • Reading: THE BOOK OF RAGE
  • Watching: RAGE ON TV
  • Playing: STREETS OF RAGE
  • Eating: RAW RAGE
  • Drinking: UNFILTERED RAGE
Computer running SLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

I used to have a strict guideline for how I browse the internet, but apparently I went stupid for a bit and allowed myself to go to any website I wanted to.  Guess I pwned myself.  Whoopdie.
  • Listening to: THE RAGE IN MY HEAD
  • Reading: THE BOOK OF RAGE
  • Watching: RAGE ON TV
  • Playing: STREETS OF RAGE
  • Eating: RAW RAGE
  • Drinking: UNFILTERED RAGE
The rules on which this world operates are quite interesting and highly ironic.


About a month ago, had some guy come up and ask for commissions.  Upon agreeing to take his, and upon completion, he became obsessive and needy.  Never paid for shit, and yet I kept my cool - hey, it's a sketch commission, I'm not losing out on much.  But over the course of the last 2 weeks, despite having other commissions that costed 10x more than what he was offering, he decided to pester me daily practically demanding that I sketch for him again ahead of them.  I calmly kept telling him to wait a little longer.

INSTANT KARMA:  Today, when I have just completely finished my commissions list and am TOTALLY FREE to take more, he decides to tell me that he no longer has patience with me and wanted to give me the business.  Hope he's happy..... with another artist doing shit for him, cuz I won't.  LOLz. 

And some of the people who said they wouldn't commission me because of my attitude (*nudge* *poke* :iconelee0228: ) think that I can't remain cool and level headed during an exchange.  Lol.  YOU try having someone pester you every fucking morning of every fucking week without blowing your lid, because it's easy for me.  I've got a month long chat log showing how much crap I put up with from this guy before I peaced out, and I still didn't get paid.  LOLz legendofzelda
  • Listening to: THE RAGE IN MY HEAD
  • Reading: THE BOOK OF RAGE
  • Watching: RAGE ON TV
  • Playing: STREETS OF RAGE
  • Eating: RAW RAGE
  • Drinking: UNFILTERED RAGE
While I do like and appreciate the idea of people sending them to me, I'm definitely not liking the idea that it makes up for lack of content, or those who think they'll just toss me a llama and I'll give it back.  That is some pedestrian level shit man.  You're not interested in me, but just want to do something you feel is nice, which amounts to pretty much nothing - almost insulting - and then expect something back?  Yeah right. 

I'm tired of this crap.  Tossing out faves and llamas don't make up for lack of comments or content from you.  And I definitely ain't taking into consideration those who demand you not thank them for a llama once they've given you one.  That's too fuckin bad.  If you have that shit on your page, I'm thanking you anyway, just for thinking you can tell me what to do.  I allow complete freedom on my page, and I expect the same from you when it comes to me, REGARDLESS of whether you feel it's imposing.  I'll only not act that way with people I have consideration for, not random strangers.
  • Listening to: THE RAGE IN MY HEAD
  • Reading: THE BOOK OF RAGE
  • Watching: RAGE ON TV
  • Playing: STREETS OF RAGE
  • Eating: RAW RAGE
  • Drinking: UNFILTERED RAGE
So yeah guys, hope you're enjoying your Haloween!

For this past month, I've been trying to extend the life of the holiday by watching as much horror themed stuff as possible.  Watched Corpse Party (EXCELLENT) , Yami Shibai (AWESOME), From the new world (eh, why was this labeled as horror?  :\), Ghost Hunt (LOVE THIS SHIT), and random other shit, especially playthroughs of Silent Hill games, though I only managed to get through SH4 and am an hour away from completion of Silent Hill 3.  Probably should've watched Silent Hill 2 instead, because 3 seems a bit..... I dunno.... boring?  After the initial buzz wore off, the game appeared to be extremely short and without much depth at all.  The other SHs keep their merit because well, 4 has more going on for it, and 2 is just one guy's psychological trip, so there's no room for complaint in either case.  SH5 is my favorite for being action packed, and hell, if it wasn't for the shitty gameplay and suck ass enemies, I'd praise Downpour's story over 3 as well.  Oh well, maybe I should close this day out with the anime Another.

Anyway, contacted a paranormal research team today, going to see if I can tag along with them on investigations.  I have this brand new idea for a horror story/game, and would like some inspiration and motivation.  Probably will go and join some groups at a college campus or something. 
  • Listening to: THE RAGE IN MY HEAD
  • Reading: THE BOOK OF RAGE
  • Watching: RAGE ON TV
  • Playing: STREETS OF RAGE
  • Eating: RAW RAGE
  • Drinking: UNFILTERED RAGE

Ah, SJPs  (P for Prudes) – a more fitting term to label SJWs, because I don’t see them much as warriors that actually engage you head on, but rather cowards that fight you indirectly through use (or should I say abuse) of authority to get you to comply.  Someone PLEASE tell me how they can feel content with themselves and not totally embarrassed to the point of permanent seclusion whenever they open their mouths to complain about something?  There’s a certain degree of shame one should feel whenever one does something so outstanding in front of a large audience, much less the world as discussing with much fervor things that offend you, while being completely oblivious to things like creativity and artistic liberty, when the obvious choice would be to simply avoid it, or simply acknowledge that it’s not for you rather to point it out the things that you hate as blatant flaws with the series.

 

Enter Glitcher, a well known Sonic the Hedgehog artist with a knack for creating some highly impressive cell shaded art, and has worked on Sea3on at times.  He also happens to be a guy that I shitted on for being such a demanding tyrant on his page, treating a simple disagreement like a 20 page flamewar that had to be ended immediately or the fate of the universe would be forever in the balance.  Seeing the way he reacted back then, I knew the guy wasn’t shit and decided he wasn’t worthy of my presence or time, and I let him have a piece of my mind on the way out.

Regardless of how this sounds, I'm attacking Glitcher more for his actions here than antyhing else.


The particular issue this time, is what I found on his FRONT FUCKING PAGE after becoming curious while checking out someone’s 3D deviation linking to the guy.  Glitcher went on to complain about Game of Thrones, of all things, as if the show itself is inherently flawed JUST because the content in the show offends him. 

 

Are you serious? 

 

How do you NOT feel absolutely embarrassed revealing to the world that you’re a fucking squeamish prude that can’t take SIMPLE warnings that are given at the beginning of the show that TELL you that it does NOT give a SHIT about your reservations and sensibilities? 

 

In his journal, which I have backed up and will post outside of deviant art if he attempts to remove it, he goes on to complain about how badly the show is written because it’s long and drawn out, and doesn’t get anything of merit done or is a bunch of stories woven together with no relation, completely IGNORING the fact that this is based on a VERY long series of books that couldn’t POSSIBLY cram all that content into a single season, and ignoring the fact that it's a story about a bunch of disjointed kingdoms fighting for control of the entire continent, and all the shit that they're going through before they even address the main problem.  And this is coming from a guy who’s first run in with the show was with a certain character getting his head smashed in during a public duel (yeah, I entered that late), and was severely pissed off by what I saw……. And then became a rabid fan shortly afterwards. 

 

OMG, it has nudity and lots of sex scenes in it!  It’s pornography!  Except you never see the dick go in, genius.  I’m pretty sure all the actors that are virgins STILL ARE as far as on set interactions go.  As if pornography can’t be meaningful artwork or something.  Just because YOU can’t appreciate it doesn’t mean others won’t, did that ever occur to you?  Pornography only seems like meaningless indulgence to YOU, as you are a sensitive little prude that finds the practice offensive, most likely due to sexual stigmas, ones that I bet you don’t even respect because they “oppress” social demographics – even your moral values are conflicting I’m willing to guess – though if this isn’t the case, and you support the stigmas, that would make you an unempathetic asshole.  It weird that you even think this way, you were very adamant in supporting the denouncing of Sally’s being clothed because Archie/Sega was being prudish over the subject, but then you pull this shit?  Welcome to the world of adults motherfucker, now get out.


What's worse is all the little pricks replying to his journal agreeing with him.  Proves that the art community is just like one giant hive mind and hugbox.  The one guy that didn't agree with his assessment of the show didn't even get a proper response, because Glitcher knew he didn't have shit for substance as a counter argument.

Here, read the debacle for yourselves:  Glitcher is caught between Rockman and Hard Man...I thought about taking some time to discuss an obscure show that only a handful of you may have heard of by now. Some low-budget fantasy series called "Game of Thrones".
Yeah okay, it's only the biggest thing ever on the boob tube right now and it's still going on for another two seasons. People constantly talk about GoT with reverence and awe, and my mother insisted I watch it when it was only a couple of seasons old. So I decided to give it a chance and borrowed her copy of it. I haven't formally reviewed the show, but all this acclaim it's getting just made me want to speak my mind. I have to say this:
Game of Thrones... is... TERRIBLE!! :rage:


I hate this show. I only watched the first seven episodes before I gave up in disgust. Now I just want to state that I last watched this a few years ago, so forgive me if my hazy memory muddles the details. For starters, the narrative structure of this show is a complete mess. There's like four or
  • Listening to: THE RAGE IN MY HEAD
  • Reading: THE BOOK OF RAGE
  • Watching: RAGE ON TV
  • Playing: STREETS OF RAGE
  • Eating: RAW RAGE
  • Drinking: UNFILTERED RAGE
After recent events over skype, and a few over miscommunications here and there, especially regarding stuff I'm asking others to do for me (regarding something I'd like to have completed because it's been a long time) I think it'd be best for me to just come out and tell people this because regardless of whether or not they follow what I'm about to say here, you can't say that you didn't read it. 

Alright, I'd just like to say, if when I'm contatcting you, you feel that I'm bothering you, and you need space, TELL ME.  Ignoring me, and avoiding me will ONLY cause YOU more headache down the line because I'm a guy who takes things only if they're clear cut and outright blatant.  I WILL continue to keep talking to you at the amount of frequency that I had always displayed towards you UNTIL you tell me you'd wish otherwise.  I don't play "take a hint" games, unless it can literally be derived from something you SAID to me.  Fuck this "I do something, and you should understand what that means", I'll ignore it.

This journal comes after a string of activity that I've seen multiple people displaying lately that I wish they would stop.  You guys have to realize, that I am a 17 YEAR CAREER VETERAN TROLL.  I KNOW when you're online, I know when you're available, I know what you're DOING.  The psychological analysis is there, the evidence is there, everything is there, exposed for me to see it and come to the conclusion that you're not trying to be around much.  Or that you don't want to do something I've asked you to.  TELL ME.  Trust me, I won't get pissed off, there wont' be pyrotechnics, I can take the crit.  THe only person who is going to get pissed off is YOU when I start flooding your inbox with questions regarding the same thing that I've asked you about. 

Stop this bullshit with not responding to notes.  DA TELLS us when you've read them.  I'll start responding to your non response by resending the note a thousand fucking times if you keep it up.
  • Listening to: THE RAGE IN MY HEAD
  • Reading: THE BOOK OF RAGE
  • Watching: RAGE ON TV
  • Playing: STREETS OF RAGE
  • Eating: RAW RAGE
  • Drinking: UNFILTERED RAGE
Got a little bit of some interesting news today when a friend that normally isn't on skype so often told me a story that I've been pondering for a while.  Was wondering why this one particular guy I was interested in partnering up with unwatched me long ago, and I figured it was because I didn't get along with his musclegirl buddies, but apparently it happens to be because I was too negative in my journals and activities over DA.  Well, I got this to make as an announcement:

I SINCERELY DOUBT this applies to much of anybody who's currently watching me, so this is more towards future watchers or anyone who just came on (or anyone who feels guilty) -

If negativity bothers you too much, AND you're not engaging with me often enough to say you gave me a chance, go fuck the fuck off.   :|  I've posted a while back that this page is for my entertainment first and foremost, because when I was attempting to curb my offputting behavior before, practically none of the people who were saying that my brash behavior bothered them were commenting or engaging with me on a daily basis.  I feed on your feedback, whether it be you telling me something good, telling me something bad, or even if you've come to my page JUST to troll me.  That shit gets me up in the morning.  The moment you stop talking to me, the quicker your opinion plumets to meaning absolutely JACK SHIT.  Take your judgemental bullshit and shove it up your ass. 

I know no one's responsible for my behavior but me, and that no one has to hold my hand to do shit, but I'm still a person.  I live on hype.  Your lack of hype means a lack of content from me, and the more I'm going to go indulge in doing shit that interests ME, not you.  Show some fucking interest and get your fucking reward, or don't come to me complaining that I'm too busy playing around.

EDIT:  I would say it specifically to that guy rather than say it to everybody, but....  He's kinda a waste of time at this point.  I've already put in enough time trying to get know this piece of shit, going so far to try to meet up with him in person.  Everyone knows my newfound policy on ABSNs (Ain't Bout Shit Niggas), so I'm wasting no more time on putrid little faggots who, TO THIS DAY, hasn't improved one fucking iota in his artwork anyway.  Guess spending too much time on a fetish didn't do you any good, now did it?


TOOL UPDATE

In OTHER news....  Got another sai tool pack and discovered the amazingness that is some professional artist's ink tool.  Going to upload the results of using that in one sec (Aja has been updated - I did not like the way she looked when I stretched her - that does NOT sound right at all =P ).
  • Listening to: THE RAGE IN MY HEAD
  • Reading: THE BOOK OF RAGE
  • Watching: RAGE ON TV
  • Playing: STREETS OF RAGE
  • Eating: RAW RAGE
  • Drinking: UNFILTERED RAGE
It's not all just me trolling you know.

Just got FINISHED telling people off a week ago about the difference between a Kemonomimi and a furry, and then when I decide that a guy who's good at 3D modeling would be a perfect match for creating one of my characters, the guy turns it down because he THINKS it's a furry.  Then tries to bullshit me and tell me that he's not familiar with the practice of creating animal things in 3D from scratch..... and here's the quote, in his words exactly:

"sorry i does not make a furry
it is not familiar to me
I need more modeling skills

Thank you"




YOU MEAN TO TELL ME.....



....YOU CAN DO SHIT LIKE THIS....

danbooru.donmai.us/posts/23543…


AND FROM SCRATCH....


BUT THIS

(my character naomi)
New Canvas by Shen-fn-Woo

 IS BEYOND YOUR COMPREHENSION?!?!

"THAT'S JUST TOO MOTHERFUCKING MUCH!!!  I HUMBLE MYSELF BEFORE THE GODS AT SUCH A COMPLICATED CREATION. 

ONCE AGAIN I KNEEL PROSTRATE AT YOUR FEET, FLAME OF CORRUPTION.

I DID STOLENS YOUR HONEY

I AM THE VERY BAD."


That's so rude to a customer that....


That...


It's fucking hilarious. 

I can't even fault you man....



Seriously...  Go....  Find inner peace.




925493469346 people think it's too hard to attach cat ears and a tail to a human body in 3D, but are prefectly capable of creating an original customized gigantic sword being carried by a spherical mouth monster with bat wings accompanying a half naked chocolate girl who has a hat that has never in history been physically created before her concept.


UPDATE:  He has now created a "furry" (by his definition anyway) to complete the cycle of bullshit.  Take a look at it here: <da:thumb id="620687418"/>  (updated link since he deleted the old one to get rid of my comment)

And I know what you, the reader are probably thinking (besides some judgemental bullshit):

"Oh but Shen, that character doesn't have any fur an-"

NEITHER DOES NAOMI YOU FUCKING SPINELESS SHIT!!!  The fact that she has animal anything apparently makes her a furry, and since this character has ram's horns and a tail, demon or not, she's a fucking furry, by his shitty, brain addled, retarded definition. 



I seriously just want to see him do more, to exponentially increase the irony here.  I want him to keep making these things so that the irony becomes an actual full on fucking iron (ab.wsimgs.com/wsimgs/ab/images…)

UPDATE 3:  He deleted his picture to get rid of the comment.  Sorry bro, that's not going to help you.  I saved the comment.  I'm putting this up somewhere else where everyone can see.  Your whacky customer service will be known bro.  You shouldn't have lied like that.  Next time don't do something so fucking dumb.
  • Listening to: THE RAGE IN MY HEAD
  • Reading: THE BOOK OF RAGE
  • Watching: RAGE ON TV
  • Playing: STREETS OF RAGE
  • Eating: RAW RAGE
  • Drinking: UNFILTERED RAGE
I want to issue out a sincere honest apology to :iconabetwabe:.  I had blown up at him over him being awkward (more like seeming awkward) a good while back.  I have very little tollerance sometimes for quirkiness, so when I thought the guy was doing something I considered insulting, I got pissed because I was withholding anger over something more legitimate in the form of dissatisfaction with the way commissions were handled.  My misanthropic nature tells me to pretty much be cryptic and underhanded with the way I deal with people online, since I feel most everyone has some ulterior, selfish motive.  When he blocked me, I thought it was an attempt to get the last word and run, so I felt no need to hold back anymore and let loose with a level 3 super.  Turns out he was more approachable than I thought and despite awkward moments, I actually could approach him with concerns I had over things that bugged me about his work. The block was more to stop himself from bothering me, and I felt sorry for even making him think that way, as I never thought anyone would use it in reverse =P.  His words ring true, and for that bro, I gotta act out of character this time and say


I'm sorry.  If you would ever consider me patroning you again, I'll definitely stress a lot more patience.  One of my biggest tick offs in real life is having to repeat myself, and I should really try to be a better judge of character before I apply that to everyone I meet.  Not everyone thinks the same.

Cheers.
 
Title:  "TRYING TO BURN THE BRIGHTEST IN HELL"

Quick update on what's been going on over the past 2 or so weeks.  Neither are worth your time reading =P (Razz)

Productivity up and down at the same time.  Up in personal affairs offline, and down on online activities.  Work wise, while I've managed to get a few requests past the ponder stage to the planning and execution stage, I haven't really finished any of them.  But at least they're better than nothing.  I'll post one of them, a request by Abster of Felicia having ...... questionable things done to her >_>, censored of course.

The team assembled to make a fighting game, called MEPP (officially now, yay!), is to undergo a bit of structural changes to ensure productivity.  I have taken the bullet to make sure our over anxious developer stays motivated (Darling, *blows kiss*) so I'm forcibly contracted to do more work not only on my end, but also help others with their spritework and show them how easy and fun it can be.  Expect a group page to come of it soon.

If ANYONE wants commissions and stuff, NOW IS THE TIME.  I am AVAILABLE.

Previous and devoted customers:
Rough Sketches - 5$
Clean line work - 10$
Colors - 15 - 20$

New Customers -

Temporarily offering the "previous customer" price list.





*PUSHING THIS SHIT DOWN TO THE BOTTOM*


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*YAWN* Recently got temp banned from a sonic forum who had a member send me an invitation to the place claiming it was better than FUS (the guys behind Sea3on).  You KNOW that a website is shit when you get banned for sending non threatening PRIVATE messages to someone XD. 

Did I cause trouble? Yeah, kinda.  Kinda needed to to find out if the place was a fit for me.  So I did a social experiment.  Introduce a standoffish guy to a forum and see how they react.  Before the day was through I got a whiney, crybaby response from the guy who invited me, where he constantly tried to put me down as a person not worthy of his time.  Went back and forth a bit, and I knew he was sharing his messages with friends of his to help him 'battle' me, so I decided to up experiment a level to the insulting stage to see whether the place would be hypocritical.  I was no disappointed.  In less than 4 PMs, I was banned for saying hurty words to the guy, who had previously did nothing but talk shit to and insult me because I hurt his wittle feewings after he bit the hardest into the average sized bait I put out there.  I mean, seriously, I said that being overemotional makes you manipulable right?  i1.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/n…  Anyway, long story short, the place, IPS, or The Free Scribes of Mobius, (whatever the fuck), has failed a simple social experiment with flying colors.  Typical facebook group level shit, to be honest.  *YAWN*
I've noticed that quite a few people have been adding some of my characters to their furry collections and stuff.  Under normal circumstances, this would be totally fine.  But in these, they're totally fucked.  Why?  Because well, the characters being added are NOT FURRIES.  It doesn't bother me as much as I make it seem, but it does continuously add to my discontent with humanity because I see a person indulging on a subject that they don't even know the definition of. 

Do me, yourself, and the world a favor and don't do anything stupid like adding a kemonomimi (animal/monster ears in japanese, which basically follows the trend of a HUMAN having animal ears, tails, wings, claws, and features) to your FURRY collection.  They're not fucking furries.  There's hardly any fur ON them.  Now, ANIMALS with a HUMAN SHAPE are furries. 


NOT FURRIES
Nalasketches by Shen-fn-Woo PMS by Shen-fn-Woo Melissa FenYakura - WIP by Shen-fn-Woo Naomi Nei-Long - Finished I guess by Shen-fn-Woo Sasha Jinku by Shen-fn-Woo Mellissa FenYakura by Shen-fn-Woo Pacifica Linknott by Shen-fn-Woo Naomi Nei-Long - Action pose by Shen-fn-Woo

Mature Content

Yumi-CLEAN by Shen-fn-Woo

Mature Content

May - Southern Girl Deus by Shen-fn-Woo

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Kaya - Deus of Dust by Shen-fn-Woo

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Mature - Nude Female - Capn Badass - Stelvia by Shen-fn-Woo

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Mature - Nude Female - Capn Badass - Hellcat by Shen-fn-Woo





FURRIES

URANUS ULKUTA - REQUEST by Shen-fn-Woo Uranus by Shen-fn-Woo Rowen by Shen-fn-Woo Foxy Roxy HD conversion by Shen-fn-Woo Old Art - Sonic Quantum - Molly (unfinished) by Shen-fn-Woo Sophia2 by Shen-fn-Woo Nestle by Shen-fn-Woo Bunnie Rabbot - ROBOTIC AARRRRRRRRRRRMMMMMMMM!!! by Shen-fn-Woo



And barring this simple explanation, there's the know your meme and 4chan versions you can use to determine it:

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Index of journal:

The Run down - what's been going on with me so far
Personal - personal policies I'm putting into play from now on
DA groups - self explanatory


The Run Down


So yeah, productivity on my end is down for the past month, mainly due to a new affliction that has me pretty pissed off.  Yeah, it's official, I now get fucking panic attacks.  Ironically, it happens to me over any kind of confrontation - even over internet!  XD  Don't know why they're getting worse, as they were generally reserved for something of way grander importance, like say, issues of life or death or maybe even physical altercations (for some reason, and it's even confirmed with other martial artists, I'm deathly afraid of getting hit, but the feeling and nervousness goes away after taking a punch =P) but now it's triggering after any fucking kind of mince of words. 

Now I feel a little stupid for giving a friend shit before about his panic attacks - to my defense though, I guess it would've helped if he told me that the nature of the attacks don't make any logical sense, and that there's really no quick fix for it.  I kinda don't care in MY case though, and will probably engage in more conflict in attempts of brute forcing my way through this bullshit affliction.  Fuck that philosophy:  I control my mind, it does not control ME.  *puts up middle finger to the subconscious part of my brain*

So yeah, again, productivity is down.  I've only submitted like 3 or 4 deviations over the past like..... err.... 2 months (I think - I'm recounting this offhand, not actually going to go and check for facts here).  I aim to at least double or triple that over the course of this month.  I need money for Otakon '16, as this is the last Otakon that will be in MD for at least the next 5 years, and I need to have this go out in style for my last ride with it.  So I will be opening commissions soon after I've completed all requests and commissions.  I plan on raising at least 300 - 600$ for this, so I'm going to be attempting to work all day every day.  If it's one thing that's ever gotten me motivated and excited to see tomorow, it's that fucking convention. 


PERSONAL

Probably a year or short of a year ago, I've made it evidently clear that I would no longer be attempting to be the one who reaches out when it comes to relationships (friendships, family, romantic, etc).  After several attempts of reaching out with no kind of actual reciprocation or returned affection/appreciation/etc, "you" or anyone I know can just be cut off, or simply not responded to with much furvor.

But I'm bringing this up because there's an extension to this policy:  I call this the AIN'T BOUT SHIT NIGGA POLICY.  You see, I have a shitton of friends who like to be entertained and do entertaining things.  A lot of those guys are extremely talented in many ways and can, if they put their minds to it, really put pen to paper and make a killing if they wanted to.  But you know what?  When it comes time to actually do these things, they fizzle out, and rather quickly, and instead go back to mindless indulgence.  They contact me when they want to have fun, and talk about mindless bullshit (otherwise known as small talk), and can do this for long periods of time.  Matter of fact, they can do this almost indefinitely, and wouldn't mind doing it either.  But the moment you want to make this small talk actually beneficial, or productive towards something, like say, making money, they kinda get dissuaded off of the idea.  They shy away from it.  Or they get stage fright and completely botch it.  Hell, other times, my friends tend to just outright refuse to be useful at all, despite having a myriad of problems that could be solved by simply teaming up with me, which would fix the vast majority of our combined problems.  This is what I call the "Ain't Bout Shit Nigga", one of the worst kinds of people I have the displeasure of associating with, because they only want to make use of me but won't allow themselves to be used in return. 

I'll put it simple.  I'm SICK of this kind of beavior.  From now on, I will be contacting YOU when """ I """  want something.  If you show little interest or outright refuse to be useful, you can see our relationship shrivel up and disappear from your very eyes.  You will NOT be taking time out of my days anymore to talk about insignificant drivel, stopping me from getting more producitive things like projects I should be working on off the ground.  FUCK that bullshit, and FUCK your uselessness.  And if you're hellbent on being useless even when I'm attempting to reach out to you, then FUCK YOU too.  Over my plan of a new life overhaul, I'll be attempting to reach out to more people and talk to them more often.  This IS NOT an indication that YOU are the person that I'm specifically talking about, though if you're getting defensive over this, you probably have lots to feel guilty about, so I'll dismiss any accusations you throw my way, and may dismiss you as well (come at me angry if you want, I'll spare absolutely no empathy). 


Deviant Art Groups

Art Empire Slums - This group is practically dead, and I'm not even sure why I'm even keeping it around anymore, seeing as the majority of the people there are/were close friends that had/have a passion for artwork and doing cheap commissions and even free artwork for the sake of drawing, not of greed.  Dreamcast however, not only got banned from Deviant Art but has also fallen to some serious greed, thinking that everything he does deserves compensation, despite the fact that he isn't even really all that good.  He even became pretty inflated in his ego, talking down about most Deviant Art users, as if the site has anything to do with the artists themselves.  He even hits me up every once in a while over skype to rub it in my face that my other group isn't producing results.  XD  Lol.  When you can sit back and mindlesly draw without worrying about significant bills (no your smartphone ain't shit, bro), or having to write stories, plan storyboards, and prune out plotholes, work on other projects, fatigue from both malnutrition and panic attacks, etc, I would assume you would have an easy time getting shit done, no? 

Anyway, I digress, but I'm thinking of keeping the group open to find more artists who simply draw for the fun of it all, rather than the profit or the ego stroking.  These guys deserve more attention and play, so I'm going to definitely keep trying for the while until considering giving up.

Fitness Girls - Savage Sylvia volunteered to help manage the group.  Seems like I had, previous to his showing up, picked up more leechers than anyone who was actually serious about doing anything worthwhile.  Not that I care, but shit, do SOMETHING.  ANYTHING.  I'm glad someone stepped up to the plate.  And within a few days of his coming aboard, he got a shitload of watchers to follow us.  Great job bro!

Sonic Quantum - Yeah I still read, watch, and play Sonic the Hedgehog games, so fuckin what.  Anyone that knows me knows that I am an absurd, rabid, CLASSIC GENESIS ERA Sega fan and think that company should've never went down.  If it wasn't for the FN infighting!  SHIT.  And I had such high value for Japs man ;_; - reality is harsh, and human nature is retarded, I should've known they weren't all model citizens.  I guess I just let my nihongophillia get the better of me. 

Oh wait... Fuck, I'm supposed to be talking about the group.  Okay.  Yeah.

Well, just like how many dynasties fall, overtaken by some other subordinate or through other means, I guess I have to usurp total control of the comic myself.  You see, unlike what most people who have followed the group at all may think, I am NOT the head honcho of the comic.  I am only the executive.  I was originally to be PAID for this comic before we made it an open communitiy project.  The actual founder himself, a pampered sort of manchild (and I usually don't like refering to anyone's level or lack of maturity, because I don't believe there's such a thing, but he's a exceptional example), he kinda doesn't really do much but sit back, run an idea through me when I call him up, and benefit from the result.  Some time back I was thinking:  since this is supposed to be HIS comic, he should be contacting ME rather than the other way around.  I mean, seriously, do you really care about this shit at all?  Does it matter whether this thing gets done or not?  Are you going to contribute anything at all other than your half baked ideas?  You have a bank account, you could wire the money to me and I could then send the money to other artists who would draw for us to take the burden off of me being not only the artists, storyboarder, writer, editor, planner, executive producer, marketer, THE LIST GOES ON. 

So I'm going to be making a journal asking the other two members that joined (one recent, the other being on for as much as a year or so) whether or not we should BOOT the founder.  Yeah, does sound funny eh?  Well, he is being fucking useless.  Not paying anyone, not coming to us offering anything, not communicating, not doing anything but sitting back and chilling.  I've been waiting around for about a month and a half for any kind of interaction from him, and so far nothing.  So yeah, chopping block decision, up next.

Projects

I'm using this space to list the amount of projects I have going on currently, and I'll have a priority ratio (ranging from 0 - 10 in terms of priority) attributed to them.

Phantasy Star / Mystic Stellar Story - 5
Cap'n Badass - 2
Defender Athena - 0
Mighty Epic Power Play - 7
Golden Axe Awakened Warrior - 2
Sonic Quantum - 5
Commissions - 10
Requests - 8
Unmentionable - 7 (due to the art practice, and not the game itself)
After the transpiring of recent events.....


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*turns computer off 4evar*

Peck O Trouble (12) by Shen-fn-Woo
*PROUD ASS SMILE*


Peoples!  You may see a shitload more productivity out of me, thanks to this wonderful occurrence in my life that has happened earlier today.  I have gotten a GODLY mattress.  Yes, no more (theoretically) can I say that I won't have the energy or rest needed to get things that I've said I was going to done.  For the past multiple years I've been struggling with fatigue, back aches, pinched nerves and everything under the F'N sun.  After bringing this wonderful construction of art home, I tested it out and felt REFRESHED....


This leads to my next ponit....


FUCK PROFESSIONALISM.

You heard me......


I went to Sleepys four months ago, looking for a bed.  I figured that I couldn't go wrong going to a retailer that specialized specifically in matching beds to your comfort needs.  They treated me honorably, and like I was in control..... despite the fact that I couldn't afford 90% of the shit there.  I wound up dropping 350$ on a bed I thought was going to solve all of my problems.  I couldn't have been more wrong.  The first few nights were fine but immediately afterwards, it was like sleeping on a ton of F'N bricks.  I threw cushion underneath the damned thing and it would do nothing but sink in and give me pinched nerves.  There were like, numb spots in my back that lasted all day when I sat at the computer.  HORRIBLE.


Well today, I was fed up with the nonsense, and I decided to bite the bullet and get my mattress.  I went to some run down inner city store that was staffed by the F'N ghetto itself.  The manager was outside in the parking lot toking up some bud.  Nigga smelled like MD5 HASH.  I could've sworn the guy was getting smart with me the entire time I was in the store.  He told me that there was no assoiciate around to help me carry out the mattress, and he didn't bother to help me himself either, despite there being like, no customers in the store.  Motherfucker didn't even thank me for the purchase.  I was even a little upset most of all, because the mattress looked smaller than the one I got earlier from sleepys. 

I got home, tried the shit out....  Not only did the shit measure up perfectly, I laid on it for 5 minutes and was A NEW F'N MAN!  All for 250$, because it came with a frame to match, since I already had the box spring.  If I wasn't a lazy piece of shit, I would've went back there and tipped that ungrateful bastard.  He gave me WIN and GOD in a can.  I love him so much ;_;