.....Remember this journal? shen-fn-woo.deviantart.com/jou…
Wonder what I was so mad about? Well here some further explanation to a particular aspect of last week's journal. This one concerning the Phantasy Star aspect.
Some year or year and a half ago, I joined Phantasy Star Cave, a website (duh) dedicated to the Phantasy Star classic series, along with the up to date games that happen to be MMORPGs. I got to know quite a few of the regulars, and while most were cool, I was sensing something left to be desired - everyone there seems so secretive.... no option to pm them, no IM service to contact them on, no email to send messages to, etc. So what are we left with? Nothing but the forum to discuss matters on. The place was fucking damn near dead, if not dying. And then, it slipped.
I said the N word. That's right, I said NIGGER. And someone, who most likely wasn't even black, got offended, and created a word filter to stop me from posting the word in the shoutbox anymore. Yes, the shoutbox. It was the only place that was used frequently, and it was the only place I actually used the word nigger anyway. Bah, anyway. They got into it with me about the intricacies and history of the word while I skillfully dismissed and disregarded everything they had to say about it, because normal, SMART people don't get upset over such meaningless words anyway - words are only as important as you MAKE them, therefore if you get offended over what someone said, it's probably YOUR fault, not theirs, so YOU have no RIGHT to IMPOSE on ANYONE in that case. I got a warning for bickering with the mod, and was told to send complaints about the mod up the chain of command - After reading that, I immediately thought FUCK YOU Missagh (he's the owner of the website). What the fuck do I look like, beating around the bush. If there's a problem on your forums, everything's sitting there right for you to read, so you can take care of it right there. I will NOT engage in the fruitless effort of messaging you just so that you can take his side and not do shit about anything - especially seeing as when it comes to the internet, message boards tend to be places created for the admin to find friends, who he then appoints as mods, so what's the point of me even bending to that stupid stipulation?
Reading their list of rules on the site, I saw that rules were constantly being violated left and right anyway, by mods no less. People were talking about things like sex and fucking, and me and other members constantly engaged in e-sex (mostly for the lols, because I can't rp for shit), morbid fantasies and gore fests at will with no intervention whatsoever. Paying close attention to the wording in the rules thread, it came to me how much of a bitch Missagh actually was - I mean, seriously, a rule stating "no trolling"? Who the...what.. Uh... Seriously? He even closed down the shoutbox after a while too (and as of this journal entry, some 2 months shy of a year since he did this, it's still closed), most likely because everyone was participating there instead of on his forums - you effectively killed your own community, dumbass. After realizing all this bullshit going on, I decided I wanted no part of contributing anything to their forums anymore, and removed everything belonging to my personal project.
Then I heard from some people that there was a hidden forum somewhere out there for us Pstar fans to participate, and all of the cool people were there with none of the faggots from PSCave. It started out awesome at first, as the place was a whirlwind of activity for quite some time. I decided I'd just hang out there for a good while. After deciding it was now my home away from internet home, I asked them could I have my own private forum for work on my project, and so that anyone and everyone who was interested could contribute some ideas and discussion. Everything was A-okay for a while, but like 3 months later, the whole damn place just died. Fucking DIED. I poked and prodded the place constantly in hopes of finding out what everyone was doing, but after the first few attempts, they stopped responding. Technically, none of them are really all that busy save one person who's in the active military, and even he posts regularly and shows up to lurk, waiting for someone to say something.
How do I know that they're not busy, you may ask? Oh it's not hard to tell if someone's just bullshitting when you're on a forum. There's absolutely no way you can cloak ALL of your internet activity, inviso will NOT help you. This is important because this all leads up to the main subject of this journal now. You see, after a while of no responses, no contributions, and absolutely no discussion, I decided enough was enough, and looked around to see what was taking up all their attention.
And I found it. The place where EVERYONE from the hidden forum and PSCave escaped to. Plain as day, everyone shows up lounging or lurking the forums, either participating in RPs, talking in the shoutbox, engaging in trivias or just plain general discussion.
The Fringes of Algol. Aka the Fringes of Faggotry, or the Fringe of the Asshole.
Upon first look, it appeared to be a great community, housing everything I could ever want to know about Phantasy Star, and most importantly, it had videos by a member who did low level boss runs - I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO PLAY THE BOSSES AT THE LOWEST LEVELS POSSIBLE FOR THE CHALLENGE!!!
Then I read the rules of the place.... -_- It was pretty much a carbon copy of PSCave. But you know what, out of all of my trolling nature, my savage, brutal honesty and sharp tongue, my complete unwillingness to bow down to authority and embrace societies' accepted norms, customs and postures (which are all wrong, oppressive and imposing by the way, negating and invalidating all justification for the rules in the first place - aka HYPOCRISY), I honestly wanted to set aside my hatred for the masses and just calm down and comply this time. JUST this time. What would it hurt?
The place is active.
The place is quite informative.
The place looks fun.
People seem to actually contribute to conversation.
So I went ahead, took a big gulp, and swallowed all of the rage (all of it), and jumped headfirst into the fray, thinking "THIS IS IT! FINALLY!!!".
I couldn't be any more wrong.
I posted a few topics......
The first one ( www.psalgo.com/boards/addressi… ) got moderate attention, and upon me rebutting, all active participants in said topic vanished like fuckin' ninjas in a failed siege upon a motherfucking rival clan's dojo. Were they just trying to answer and be done with it? Get the last word? What?
So I contributed artwork next ( www.psalgo.com/boards/shen-woo… - yeah, I took my artwork down, fuck them). A whopping 2 people came to say anything about it. 2. FUCKING 2. LOLZ. Okay, there's a possibility that the forum's activity monitor is FULL OF SHIT AND LYING TO EVERYONE ON GOD'S GREEN EARTH, but I refuse to believe that. Granted quite a few of the people who are of TFOA are regulars from other PStar sites, I didn't expect to see anything from them, but what about the others?! There's a shitload of people here! Not to mention, the fact that I couldn't post direct links to artwork because "OMG, there might be naughty out there" was highly irritating. So I had to go through the effort of modifying my picture in image editing software so that I could meet the forum's guidelines and parameters to make sure it uploaded correctly. Seriously, after you read what I have to say below, it's a fucking miracle I didn't get pulled up for an infraction simply on the fucking picture I decided to post! ( shen-fn-woo.deviantart.com/art… ) Underboob be naughty too, bitches, but you didn't fucking complain about that, did you? I do appreciate the little comments I did get, but am generally discontent with the amount of productivity of the rest of the users.
Okay, finally, the breaking point for me. My latest topic ( www.psalgo.com/boards/to-make-… ), how to balance guns vs Swords evenly for an rpg's storyline. That is, how to change the physical, mechanical aspects of how swords/melee weapons/guns function as to make it so that they are evenly matched, from a STORYLINE standpoint. What did I get? People telling me how to balance swords and guns from a gameplay aspect, and or simply having guns not created in a way that's effective at all. Can you believe that? In a technologically advanced society, they're going to use guns that aren't effective at KILLING shit, just so that people who brandish swords could have the ability to fight on par with them? On the other hand, you really thought that a gameplay's aspect was what I was talking about? I want this story to make sense realistically or at least logically, and you throw game logic at me? It's obvious that you didn't take the topic seriously or read it at all and just threw out whatever came to mind as soon as you could. I could even forgive all that if ANY FUCKING BODY ACTUALLY RESPONDED WITHIN A FUCKING WEEK. As said in the last paragraph, there's a ton of people here. Are they all fucking here to waste space?! THIS IS A DISCUSSION FORUM PEOPLE, WHY DON'T YOU FUCKING DISCUSS SHIT, YOU INBRED HELLASSES?!
I wouldn't even be half as pissed at people nor a tad bit aggressive if it wasn't for this one dumb shit there who took things a bit too far - Now upon replying to Myau, I practically stated that I was discontent with the fact that he responded just to tell me that he and others didn't have time to respond (which is utter bullshit, because if you have time to lurk the fucking forums then you have time to say shit, you lazy fucks). I wasn't really all that mad at him, and I still ain't, but then shit ass wolf-bird shows up in a private message telling me that she deleted my comment saying that it was inflammatory, and disrespectful. I replied, and she didn't respond (for a week now), so seriously, piss off bitch. The exact message reads as follows ->
[quote="Shen-FN-Woo"][quote="myau56"] It's not a lack of interest ! I just think that some people lack time and that is all ! But bgood luck about this anyway [/quote][/quote]
In other words, they lack interest.
I lack the nature to care so much as to get ticked off, but if you could see from my point of view how utterly ironic it is for someone who doesn't have time to post ideas to come on to tell me that they don't have time to post ideas, you might be fuming.
There's 4 things this post says:
- I'm not the type to get very pissed off
- The notion that people lack time is dismissed as bullshit
- It's ironic for someone to say that they don't have time to post, when they had time to be able to post this.
- You'd be angry if others did this to you.
Explain to me where this is inflammatory. ANYONE HERE ON DA, OFF OF DA, ANYWHERE ON THE INTERNET is invited to school me on this. You have my WORD that I'll be completely objective, and I expect your answer to be objective too.
If no one can do this, I'll rely on my own explanation - you have to be pretty fucking dumb and lack basic comprehension skills to find anything insulting and disrespectful about anything I said in that particular post. I know that people CAN draw offense from it, but you could also draw offense from me stating "good morning" (because people can draw offense from anything), and I expect moderators, and fuck, someone of the position of a fucking GLOBAL moderator, who's one step down from being a got damned admin, to exercise the smallest fucking bit of objectivity to dismiss claims that there was anything wrong going on on my end. Seriously, fuck you for that. I tried my best to filter, censor, silence, restrain and constrain my normally abrasive attitude for compliance with your overly strict, contradicting, hypocritical, bullshit rules only for you to prove to me all along my very theory as to why it's not worth it to follow rules over internet forums in the first place - there really isn't a wrong way to go about behaving over internet. It's all words, and if someone's going to get offended and pissed off, it was bound to happen generally anyway, and it's not one's own fault. Just say fuck them, and go about your business. The stupidity in TFOA's rules knows no bounds, stating fallacies explaining that your inflammatory actions cause others to come to anothers' aid and causes a disturbance on the forums. This is all bullshit, because it's not garaunteed to happen. No one is forced by the angry guy to go out and defend their friends. That's why I don't normally participate on forums like these, because they're virtually nothing but playpens for little babies to play in, what with the hypocrite management looking over us like we can't defend ourselves. NEWSFLASH FUCKWADS OF FORUMS OF THIS NATURE:
- Globally -
- Everyone is responsible for their own actions. No one has control over another, PERIOD. If someone attempts to come to another's aid, then they have fully made the decision to do that all on their own.
- There are nothing but words in the display of text, visualizations and sound over the internet. What with that said, there's virtually NO fucking way to "disrupt" the services and activities of the forum when all that's being done is communication. HACKING, DDOSing, and physical manipulation of the functionality of the site is the ONLY way to "disrupt" the services and activities of the forum, and THAT should be what you have to DEAL with. There are tools and resources available to users for they THEMSELVES to take advantage of in order to avoid conflict on said forums. All forms of communication THUS can be skipped, or ignored at the USERS discretion, hence making your concept of "disruptive" completely abject, imbecilic and fallacious.
- Swearing isn't even a fucking issue due to the above. I mean, if you're so much of an adult, or so mature (mature mostly defining as responsible, experienced, and reserved amongst the masses), then you can totally FUCKING comprehend the FUCKING message if you're that FUCKING mature.
- I can understand keeping things safe for work, since it has OUTSIDE repercussions, but seriously, if something's marked not safe for work, not expecting to find PORN or something on it's level is completely asinine.
- You CANNOT permanently get rid of someone over the internet on a forum. You can ONLY stop them from speaking over your forums. They can AND will come back, if not as a user, as a lurker, to see what you've said and benefit from everyone else's contributions to your website. If they don't continuously harass you after banishment, you can't complain to their ISP, and since you can't do that, you can't stop them from lurking. With that said, you've done nothing but stroke your own ego in thinking you've accomplished anything when attempting to ban someone. How mature are you now? How valid are your views on maturity now? Is there even such a thing?
- Fringes related -
- Children are better off being exposed to the so called "extremes" of society as early as possible, that way they don't come off as deluded and overly sensitive (aka prudish) as you bubble living fucks are. I mean, this IS based on a game where the measurements of an adult female were given out as one of the game's jokes, strippers danced on stage while some guard tried to peek up their skirts, oh, and funny enough of all, people abused the picture posting feature of PSO to make cock 'splosion, sex and inappropriate jokes all fuckin' day long. Hell, things continue to get raunchy as you go further down the line of PS games, what with boob physics and shit.
- Vent over -
I felt the STRONG UNBEARABLE need to say all of this. I'm seriously, again, not angry at much of anyone else besides Wolfbird, and I probably shouldn't have generalized the entire forum based on her actions alone, as they could be localized only to her, but I don't care. This is how I RAEG. If this offends you in any way despite this being said, and the conditions not applying to you, fuck you, I don't give a shit, GET MAD, I want you to.
How much are you willing to bet this gets me banned from that place, DESPITE it not being in their rules?
Anyway, if they delete, modify, ban me, or change anything I've posted in this journal, they can rest assured that I have backed up everything that was said and can post screenshots to replace everything they've gotten rid of. You do NOT escape.
It'll be funny if they do ban me though, because I'll be back within a short amount of time, lurking the forums. They would've accomplished nothing. I still plan to be active there, but I'm going to contribute nothing but my useless opinion from now on. What a fucking shitty ass joke.
Edit: Though I guess I'll just continue to keep up my work at the hidden forum. Even if they aren't being completely honest with me, they're at lest not BULLSHITTING me. I honestly do not have any complaints about that place besides the death in activity. Really guys, your place can be every bit as good if not better than the Fuckface of Algo - which isn't even spelled correctly, as the solar system PS takes place in is "ALGOL". I know the shoutbox functionality is shitty, I'm pretty sure we can just get something better.